since i last wrote…

my ex-husband died.  nobody should die so young.   he was diagnosed with cancer about 15 months ago, and he died a little over a month ago.  he got really sick about 2 months before he died, and there are no words to describe the pain.  it was horrible to see him cry, and i couldn’t help him.  he wasn’t ready to die.

you enter a different world when you help someone pass away.  i was consumed with a peaceful passage for him.  i had to medicate myself for a couple of weeks.  he and i decided to include lani and sierra in all decisions, and to be part of the whole process of dying.

when he passed away – lani and sierra had no more tears.